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Saturday, March 14, 2009

4:34PM - The Obama Deception

Before you brush off this information (or the messengers) as conspiracies, do your own homework. Verify the information in the film to see if there is any truth to it, instead of dismissing the message.

Current mood: geeky
I Wait for You to Ruin Me.

Friday, June 30, 2006

12:50AM - goodbye and good riddance!

I'm going to be out of this living hell hole in a week! BF got a job at OHSU and a part-time job at the VA, which we needed desperately in order to move out of this house. We found a house out in Milwaukie that's pretty huge...well...for us since it's just the two of us and a billion animals.

Speaking of a billion animals, I got a little puggle puppy last week. I still can't figure out a name for him.

So pretty much this is my big f-you to getting out of here and not having to see or experience (hopefully) any of the following briefly described below anymore:

*Ladies demeaning themselves infront of my house every night to make a buck.
*Rich scumbag married men who park outside my house and get their nuts out by some hooker they just picked up off of 82nd.
*Tweeker semi-truck drivers with hookers and stolen items in the truck cab.
*Drunk guy getting his head beat in by people he knows and me watching the cops drive by slowly, honk their horn, and speed away awhile the guy is still getting his head beat in. Thank you cops for PROTECTING AND SERVING your community!
*Having the cops NOT check to see what late night creepos parked at the park (I live across the street from a big park) are doing in their cars, BUT the cops WILL hop the curb with their car onto the park jogging track and drive around it. I guess tax payers don't pay them enough to actually get out of their cars and walk around the park to search for creepos...but they will happily waste gas while sitting on their asses.
*My former chop shop neighbors.
*The 15 year old girl next door who always came to my door to ask me for stuff or just comes to my door to to tell me "This is what staying up all night doing meth looks like" while her and her little friend had drawn all over themselves with markers and make-up.
*Seeing someone trying to jack up someone's car and steal their tire in broad daylight infront of 20 billion people walking around at eastport plaza.
*the frequent soft hum of police sirens chasing people down 82nd in the background to constantly remind you "you're living in a shit hole."
*People trying to cook meth in the park bathrooms.
*Hookers putting their makeup on and getting ready at park picnic tables.
*The drum circle that plays the same beat until 10pm every couple days.
*Someone playing beatle song on a trumpet infront of my house at 9am.
*Toxic "friends".

So again here's a big f-you to felony flats and all those situations cause I'm moving on up and getting the hell out of here!

Current mood: relieved
2 Tore my Heart Out /I Wait for You to Ruin Me.

Sunday, April 9, 2006

1:03AM - you make me weep...and wanna die.

So Journey is coming to town and I need tickets....how about someone buy them for me since my b-day is in less then a month, kthanxbye.

Current mood: awake
5 Tore my Heart Out /I Wait for You to Ruin Me.

Sunday, October 23, 2005


My dad had a heart attack. He had to have bypass surgery. I'm in the process of getting ready (psychically and mentally)to go see him. I've never been good at seeing people I care about in the hospital...let alone going to hospitals. I just don't want to be a complete mess when I see him.

3 Tore my Heart Out /I Wait for You to Ruin Me.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005


This won't be shocking to anyone in light of recent developments, but Curl Up And Die are officially calling it quits. CUAD's Mike Minnick has released the following statement:

"After almost seven years of being a band we have decided to call it quits. We want to say to everyone who has ever supported us in any way; thank you, this has truly been an amazing experience."

The group will play three final shows (a Las Vegas show hasn't been scheduled yet):

Saturday, November 12th
@ The Chain Reaction in Anaheim, CA
w/ Kylesa, Coliseum, Torche and special guests
Show starts @ 7:30pm
Tickets available at Tickmaster

Sunday, December 11th
@ The Livery Theatre in Ventura, CA
w/ Countervail, Six Different Ways & more TBA
Show starts @ 7pm
Tickets at the door or through ticketweb.com

ok...who wants to go to Cali in December? Both COUNTERVAIL and CUAD are playing that date...I haven't seen either in years. I'll hitch hike if I have to.

Current mood: blah
4 Tore my Heart Out /I Wait for You to Ruin Me.

Saturday, August 6, 2005

7:55PM - I need a fix cause I'm going down..Down to the bits that I left uptown

We might be moving yet again...but in a way better place. Well, at least better then here. We might be moving to Milwaukee in about a month or so.

I just got internet back up. So far it's been back up for 4 hours and I haven't left the computer since. Surprisingly, I can't figure out what music I should download. I've been pretty out of the loop in every genre, so if there's anything you would suggest downloading, I'll gladly check out. I've been downloading Wonder Showzen though. If you haven't watched it, you should suckas cause you're missing out. I think it has to be my favorite show so far....or ever really.

I want to go see Pelican. Michelle...come with me.

I have a cell phone again...finally. If you want the number, holla. I'm not posting it up here for any weirdos to call me. Be forewarned though...I suck at returning calls (and e-mails, myspace messages,& anything else really).


Current mood: bouncy
5 Tore my Heart Out /I Wait for You to Ruin Me.

Friday, July 8, 2005


The internet is shut off for awhile. I probably won't get it back until we move. We'll be living in felony flats in a little over a week. ha.

I Wait for You to Ruin Me.

Saturday, July 2, 2005

3:28PM - Best thing I've seen on TV in awhile....

Watching Pink Floyd get back together and play Live 8 was the best thing I've seen on television in years. Too bad they cut the video footage short so they can play commercials. :/

Current mood: good
2 Tore my Heart Out /I Wait for You to Ruin Me.

Saturday, May 28, 2005

12:38PM - snoop upside yo head.

Last night was the best Snoop show i've seen. He played alot of the older songs from 213 and his album doggystyle. I felt old once I was singing "Lodi Dodi" and "Ain't No Fun" and realized that not one person was singing them...but they did know drop it like it's hot! woooohhh. Come on...those songs are snoop classics! How could you like snoop and not know these songs?!

Current mood: groggy
3 Tore my Heart Out /I Wait for You to Ruin Me.

Friday, May 27, 2005


Snoop Dogg tonight!

P.S. I also like how I go to the park to relax and end up being Dr. fucking Phil for some random lady in the park. ha.

Current mood: ecstatic
I Wait for You to Ruin Me.

Monday, May 9, 2005

5:24PM - For all the bitches I might take home, I got the johnson baby powder and Cool Water cologne

May 27th-Snoop Dogg @the Rose Garden


Current mood: indescribable
2 Tore my Heart Out /I Wait for You to Ruin Me.

Sunday, May 8, 2005

4:13PM - broken, yet not dead...I want my fucking life back.

I feel kinda better. I was actually thinking about going to the dead unknown show tonight by myself, but i dunno...we'll see, I guess. The thought of going alone and standing there by myself gives me a little anxiety. I don't go to shows anymore. The last time I went to any hardcore show was Converge back in Oct. I've lost touch with everyone that I used to talk to. Seeing people that I haven't talked to in awhile always give me a little anxiety about the conversation in which we might have(or lack of...more so the lack there of). It's not that I don't have anything to say. I just don't know what to say since it's been so long. I've never been good at this social thing.

I'll quit my cryfest, suck it up, & see what happens.

peace suckas

Current mood: uncomfortable
I Wait for You to Ruin Me.

Friday, May 6, 2005


It was a birthday yesterday and I'm still dying from a sinus infection. We spent two days at the beach, but when I came back yesterday my sinus infection got worse. It must be from this dirty city air. ugh. I didn't get to do much besides lay around and whine for my b-day...and I wished that I would have had a better time besides dying in bed celebrating cinco de mayo. I even wanted to see a little dead unknown last night, but that failed obviously.

So what i guess what I'm getting at is I put a rain check on my birthday. I'll celebrate it when I'm feel a little better. Hopefully the people that want to come out and drink with me will still feel up to it on my "fake birthday" day. I haven't drank in awhile. Give me some tequila, bitches!

Lots of love <3

Current mood: sick
5 Tore my Heart Out /I Wait for You to Ruin Me.

Saturday, April 23, 2005

4:41PM - the only time I update is either when I'm sick, pissed, or going to a show. ha

So I'm dying....ok, maybe not really, but it feels close. I've been on this great diet for the past week. It's called the bladder and sinus infection diet. It works well. You don't eat anything for a week and if you try to eat anything you puke it back up anyways. I probably already lost 5 pounds. Maybe after this diet ends I'll actually be able to fit myself into my party dress in time for my b-day. :/

What really should happen is me getting out of this shit-hole apartment. I'm pretty sure this place doesn't help my health any breathing in all this espestis from the ceiling. Mmmmm....yum! AND drinking the brown, lead tasting, water from the tap.

Oh yeah...and for the recap of my life in the last few months since you're probably wondering when the hell I even moved into an apartment:

*started dating a boy.
*moved out and now live in this apartment with him.
*started to grow house plants.
*moving out soon and finding a house to buy.

That's pretty much what I've been up to....

oh, and I saw Too short a few weeks ago! YEAH!

Current mood: sick
2 Tore my Heart Out /I Wait for You to Ruin Me.

Thursday, December 2, 2004

3:55PM - drop it like it's hot.

damn right...I couldn't agree more...

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Current mood: amused
5 Tore my Heart Out /I Wait for You to Ruin Me.

Monday, October 11, 2004

2:19PM - Take me tonight before I wake up from your spell.

I had probably the most incredible time of my life yesterday. I won't go into the details because that's for me and 3 other people to know and for you to never find out. Just know it was amazing and it was the best time I've had since a long time.

Current mood: giggly
4 Tore my Heart Out /I Wait for You to Ruin Me.

Sunday, September 19, 2004

11:34PM - fuck I'm bored

Your Homicidal Rampage! by crash_and_burn
Your name:
Weapon of Choice:Machete
Your Favorite Target:Emo-kids
Your Kill Count:1,546,777,688
Your Battle Cry:"Yo mama!"
Years You Spend in Jail:13
How Much Money In Damages You Cause:$88,482,009,861,654
Your Homocidal Insanity Level:: 32%
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hmm...that sounds just about right.

Current mood: nauseated
I Wait for You to Ruin Me.

Friday, August 6, 2004

4:14PM - I'm so crazy....coming home intoxicated...I just wanna love ya.

NO!!!!!! R.I.P. Rick James. :(


Current mood: shocked
2 Tore my Heart Out /I Wait for You to Ruin Me.

Monday, July 5, 2004

6:12PM - best news I've heard in awhile....

10/15 Portland OR @ Meow Meow-CONVERGE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current mood: ecstatic
3 Tore my Heart Out /I Wait for You to Ruin Me.

Friday, May 28, 2004

11:04AM - nothing else to do when you're sick....


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Current mood: sick
I Wait for You to Ruin Me.

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